Friday, April 23, 2010

Marriage & Liberty

Still, I've been impressed by how liberal relationship between Jean-Paul Sartre and Simone de Beauvoir was.
They never got married, but kept their relationship, experiencing another "incidental" loves.
They worked on some social activities together, and supported each other greatly.

This is a quotation from Beauvoir's essay. She wrote about the relationship with Sartre.
"Both of us don't want to be bound. Therefore, we never think about getting married.
Marriage is against our philosophy. We are against the current social systems because they don't allow us to stay liberal. So, it's natural for us to stay singles."

Even though they were like a husband and a wife, they never got married.
They were born almost one hundred years ago. Even in France, the world must have been more conservative than now...but, they never agreed with the marriage.

If I say, "Hey, I want to be independent. Why don't we NOT married? We can keep our relationship, we can live together, but, not as a husband and a wife. Let's be free from now on!"
to my hubby...what will happen??

As my hubby and myself, rather traditional people, we might prefer "restriction" to "freedom."
We are not supposed to have "incidental loves" like Sartre and Beauvoir. We have a "restriction," but which is fine! We enjoy a kind of restriction. In other words, ordinal Japanese like us, feel tiring to search another relationship in the busy days!
Also, "agreeing the current social systems" is much easier than "against" them.
Because we are married, we can take some priorities and convenience, such as taxes.

Additionally, even we hope the freedom, our family (my parents and in-law's) might be against it. Our families are so close because we are married.
But if we're not...I miss the half of my family.

I'm such a typical conservative Japanese, but in France, the thinking way like Sartre and Beauvoir is very popular.
In France, 45% of parents are unmarried. Comparing, just 2% in Japan.
Even though so-called the "social systems" are different between France and Japan, I 'm impressed with French people.
"Being against the social system" must need energy!
Gosh, French people are SO interesting to me!!

Thursday, April 22, 2010

Relief & Trace

...This is a continuous story of the last article.

Last week, I was EXHAUSTED because two of my classes for "three year old kids" were such a mess.
The thing made me tired the most was the situation, "they seemed to hate me."
I know they like me basically. They used to smile to me a lot, and answered my question enthusiastically. But since we started to have English lessons without their moms, they cried when they saw me, saying, "I prefer MOM! Not you!!"
...They don't hate me, but they LOVE their moms much more than me! Of course!!

However, this week, things have been changing a little bit.
While I was teaching Mizuki, one of the babies, I found out how I could comfort her.
She stopped crying when I held her, standing up. Singing songs made her comfortable more.
After the class, when I took her to the lobby, her mother hadn't come back.
But, because I held her in my arms & kept talking to her, she didn't cry.

How to make the kids comfortable is completely "depends on" the kid.
Therefore, I need to "customize" each of their classes.
I was relieved that Mizuki stopped crying in my class, but today, I found out I have a muscular pain on my arms...because I kept holding her for 50 minutes! That was a "trace" of my hard working!???

This coming weekend, I'll make a hand-made doll not to make the babies bored, and teach "stand up!" and "sit down."
...When did I become a baby-sitter? I thought I became an English teacher!!

Cradle to grave

In Japan, the new semester starts in April.
Therefore, many people are trying to assimilate into their new circumstances right now.
Yes, many people...especially, kids!

In my English language school, I take care of many of those kids. As you can imagine, the younger they are, the harder to get accustomed to new classes.
So, those whom I'm concerned the most are...babies.
Until last March, kids in "baby" class took my lessons with their moms.
However, those who will be three years old this fiscal year, entered "a class for three year old kids."
Therefore, now they take my English lessons without their moms even though they are just 27 months or so.

Before the classes started, I was optimistic.
This year, kids in that age started to take my lessons when they became one year old.
I knew they liked me very much, and they already got accustomed to our school and staff.
At the first class, they were fine. They came to my classroom alone, and answered my questions as usual.

However, since the second week of April...they started to miss their mothers.
They started to wonder, why their mothers were not in the classroom with them.
I kept talking to them, "Since you are SO GOOD kid and I LOVE YOU VERY MUCH, I want to have fun with you in English, ALONE!! You are special kids who can do so! Your moms know how hard you can work, so they're looking forward to hearing what you learned today!"
...However, it was obvious that two year old kids couldn't understand it.
They JUST missed their mothers!!

Last week, they were crying so hard, twisting their bodies, saying, "I miss mommy! Mommy! Please come!!" They tried to escape from the classroom several times...
I stopped them, held them in my left arm. But, by the right arm, I tried to search something made them comfort, (like toys, dolls, or books) and tried to go on my English lesson.
(I have two babies of that age. But each one comes to different days, so I have one baby in each class.)

I felt like I was torturing the cute babies. My class was like "the hell" because the babies were crying SO hard & trying to escape from me and the classroom... Maybe, I was like a "great king of the hell" for them...
However, their mothers were in the HEAVEN during the time.
They trust me, so they left the school to shop, enjoying a brief rest from busy parenting days.
I don't want the moms to take it serious, so after they came back school, I said,"They did a GREAT job! They missed you, and cried A LITTLE, but they tried to learn! Great!!"

Without knowing my intention, one of the babies, Takumi, still cried so hard, sticking to his mom, and said.
"Potato's place! Potato's place!!"
Because I was with him for a certain time, I understood what he was trying to say.
"Takumi! You mean, "Take me to the POTATO'S PLACE as a reward of taking English lesson alone, don't you? And, the "POTATO'S PLACE" means McDonald's! Right?"
His mom was surprised.
"...Yeah! I think you're right!! How do you know, his "potato's place" is the hamburger restaurant, McDonald's??"

I know! Because my hubby sometimes says the almost same thing to me!!
When he was a kid, his mother took him McDonald's during the time his sister was taking some classes. Since then, McDonald's has still been his kind of "haven." ("Heaven" sounds exaggerated, though...)
Plus, many other kids just LOVE McDonald's!!
They often show me their toys from the "happy set."

It is said, "What is learned in the cradle is carried to the grave."
It's true! People don't forget what they enjoyed in their childhood...in my opinion, ESPECIALLY boys do not forget it.

Sunday, April 18, 2010

Lost and Found

Have you ever thought you're the stupidest person in the world?
Last Monday, I exactly thought that.

That day, I was really tired. On the way to work, I fell asleep in the train. When I had to transfer, I woke up and dashed to another train. I was relieved I made it to get on the train, but the relief disappeared soon. Because I noticed I forgot my umbrella in the last train!

Actually, it was not my first time. After I came back to Japan, I mean, in recent two years, I did the same thing THREE times (including this time) on the same pattern.
On a rainy day, at the same place( I hang the umbrella on the rail in a train, then I leave it,) I forget the SAME umbrella.
I don't know why. I have two umbrellas, but I always forget the SAME umbrella, which is flower-patterned ANNA SUI one.

...Wait a minute. Now you wonder, why I CAN leave the SAME umbrella THREE times??
Because I always FIND it!! You know, I'm in Japan! Still, one of the safest countries in the world... Nobody has taken the brand umbrella in a train!!

But, I tried hard to get it back to me again.
Whenever I notice I forgot my umbrella, I dash to the station clerk office.
The Japanese station clerks are well-trained.
They ask me the umbrella's color, pattern, brand, material of the handle, etc, etc, very crisply.
However...my favorite ANNA SUI is famous for colorful flower patterns, so it's hard to describe!
I answer, "The basis is white, brand is ANNA SUI... the pattern is flower, but the colors of the flowers are...purple and black...or green or something? ...Well, the material of the handle is...plastic. The color is black, maybe..."
Now, you notice it's no wonder why I thought I'm the stupidest in the world?
Whenever I forget the umbrella, I swear to myself, "it'll never happen again!" So, I've never remembered exactly the look of the umbrella!!
The exact flower colors are purple, green, yellow, and black, and the handle is made by tortoiseshell, beige-colored. I noticed after I looked it carefully!!

The Japanese station clerks are very polite even to the stupidest person.
"Which number of the railway car were you? We can get in the train to search quickly during the intervals, if you tell me the specific number of the car."
I wondered, "Well, it was the middle of the train...so, No.7 or 8??"
"You know, the train has 10 cars. If you got on in the middle, it wasn't supposed to be..."
"I see. Maybe, No.4 or 5, I guess..."
That's why I can never find my umbrella before it goes far away.
I always have to go to the final destination of the train to get my umbrella.
Once, I went to Takao Sanguchi(高尾山口), which was very suburb of Tokyo.
It took more than one hour to get to the station, and I found even the weather changed so much while I was in the train to get there!!

Because my description was poor, even excellent Japanese station clerks said, "we haven't found your umbrella. But, there is a lost-and-found station at Meidai Mae(明大前) station. You may find yours if you go there." Once, I found it there.

Last Monday, the station clerk said to me again.
"I haven't found your umbrella... But there is a similar one at the final destination, Motoyawata(本八幡。)"
I believed it was mine, so immediately said.
"May I go to the station and check it if it's mine??"
"Sure. Come to the office."

On the day, I had my classes until 9:30 pm. After teaching seven classes, having without dinner, I headed to Motoyawata, which is in Chiba, even far away from Ichikawa city.
At the Motoyawata station, I found MY Anna Sui umbrella!!
I was so glad and took the fastest train to get home. But during the way, the train was held up due to the accident with casualties. So, the time I finally got home was 12:30 am!!!

I always feel I'm the stupidest person in the world when I lost something, but I feel I'm the luckiest person in the world when I FOUND it.
It's hard to correct my nature, the carelessness, but also it's hard to discard my another nature...positiveness.

The next morning, my hubby suffered from a stomachache.
He writhed in pain, saying, "I have to... I have to go..."
I felt very sorry for him, "You have to go where? To office?"
He said, "No, I have to go to...the station...to take my umbrella!!"

After awhile, he asked me, "Are you OK?"
I suspected, "OK with what?"
He grinned, "Have you forgotten...something???"

It also is hard to correct his nature from his hometown, Kansai area...MAKING FUN OF ME even when he is sick!!

(By the way, now his stomachache has completely gone. Good for him!!)

Harmony

From today, I would like to write my blog every...morning.
I always wrote an article before I went to bed. The good thing of it was great to look back the day at the end of the day. The bad things were, one was taking much time, so it delays my sleeping time. The other was that facing a computer just before I went to bed was kept me so awake that sometimes I had hard time to fall asleep. In sum, to make my time effectively in the daytime, I decided to keep this journal in the morning. If I can get up earlier to make time...look back the day before.
I really hope I can!!

Yesterday, after my French class was over, I felt disappointed with me.
I've been studying French for a long time, but I've not improved in French!!
It makes sense, cause I don't study it everyday. I just rush to review the last lesson before the next lesson... I can never improve the language unless I use French DAILY!!
I have some students like...me. For a teacher, it's obvious that the student studies enough or not. I always say to them, "Class is just the place for your presentation of your daily practice. Take at least three times the lesson time for practice. (For example, if the class time is one hour, you need at least three hours to practice.) Then, you finally nail what you learned."
However, I don't live up to what I'm saying, especially when it comes to French!

I was also reminded I used to have the same frustration in 2003-2004.
I have the irritation why my English isn't perfect all the time. But in the first year when I started to live in America, the feeling was very serious.
Since I couldn't express my feelings& opinions in English, also I couldn't understand what people were saying in English, I felt very stressful.
I always blamed myself why I was like a "child" or "the handicapped" who couldn't communicate with well. However, as I studied English, the frustration became less and less.
Yes, I have no other option to conquer the frustration than studying the language("facing it" in other words,) on a daily basis.

After the French class, I watched the video of a French educational TV program by NHK.
Then, I heard very interesting expression.
"Entre deux individus, l'harmonie n'est jamais donnee, elle doit indefiniment se conquerir."
(Sorry, I can't put accent aigu and accent grave by this computer!!)
" Between two individuals, the harmony is never given. It is indefinitely to conquer."
The words are by Simone de Beauvoir, an FAMOUS author & philosopher. Surprisingly to me, her lifetime partner, Jean-Paul Sartre, said to her when they were young.
"Our relationship is "inevitable." However, we should also experience "incidental" loves."
Beauvoir had struggled with unreasonable his belief, but she was not "conquered" by the man.
She kept being who she was, made an effort to have a "harmony" with him, and they made it in their lifetime.

I completely agree with her words. The relationship between my hubby and me may seem effortless, but we know we've tried to make a harmony. No only between partners, but also to get a dream...we always need "to conquer" something, on our...DAILY BASIS!!!

That was what I agreed with her idea. Not Sartre's idea, "we should experience "incidental" loves!" However, whenever I study French, I am stunned by their liberal thinking ways.
Will I change gradually if I study French on my DAILY BASIS??? It may be interesting!??

Friday, April 16, 2010

Pink VAIO

I had been using a white NEC desktop computer.
It did work, but very slowly, and didn't have enough capacity.
My hubby kept saying, "You should buy new one! What kind of computers would you like?"
My priority was very clear. "A PINK one!" He wondered, "...and???" My answer was quick. "That's all!" But I added. "I want a SONY, pink VAIO. No other computers!"

Have you ever watched an American reality show, "Girls next door??"
http://www.eonline.com/on/shows/girlsnextdoor/
When I was in America, I always watched it. The show is about daily life of Hugh Hefner, a founder of Playboy magazine. Even though he is in his 80's, he lives with his three young girl friends in a gorgeous mansion. The girls are models of Playboy magazine. Does it sound very lewd? But actually, the show was very funny! The three "Hef's girl friends" were very famous and popular. Even some little girls said, "I want to be like them in the future!"
I thought America is a VERY interesting country. In some aspects, they're really conservative.
In another aspects, some people are VERY...liberal???

Anyway, almost four years ago, a girl of Hef's girlfriends, Brigitte, got a PINK VAIO as a birthday present from Hefner. It was my first time I "fell in love" with a computer thing!
Since then, I had thought, "if I have a new PC, I'll take the PINK VAIO!"

Last August, after three years since I "had a crush" on the PINK VAIO, I finally got the one!
The VAIO looks like this.
http://www.vaio.sony.co.jp/vaio/products/W21/
This is the new version, but the color is the same as me.
Not vivid pink, but not pale one. The pink exactly was my "type" of pink tone!

I really enjoyed having the PINK VAIO. But a week ago, it started "snoring."
Yes, exactly, it sounded "snore." The difference from "human being's snore" was, my PINK VAIO snored when she was working. So, I had the VAIO repaired.

Yesterday, my PINK VAIO came back tome from a repair center.
The clerk said, " The reason of the sound was dust. Dust can easily accumulate in a computer, through a vent. You should clean the ventilator up regularly, at least once a month."
...Clean up the ventilator??? I had never done it with my ex, I mean, NEC computer, but it didn't break at all!!
Isn't it weird!?? It has been less than one year since I got the PINK VAIO!!

Not only beautiful girls, but also beautiful COMPUTERS have thorns like roses???
By the way, in the reality TV show, "Girls next door," all of the three Hef's girlfriends in 2006 (When I watched the show,) left Hef's mansion. Now, another three models became his new girlfriends, and the show has still been on air. ... I hope my beautiful PINK VAIO will not leave me again!!

I would like to keep my blog again since my girlfriend(PINK VAIO) came back to me!!

Sunday, April 11, 2010

Anniversary Emceeing

I went to an area (English) speech contest of the Toastmasters.
The winner and the runner-up were Japanese ladies. They made humorous speeches, looked very confident, moved smoothly on the podium, used a lot of gestures, and had a strong & colorful voice and firm eye contact with the audience.

I envy them because they were very capable of what I can't do.
1. Making effective pauses
If the speaker pauses too long, the audience wonders s/he forgets the speech.
If the pause is too short, the speech flows too smooth to make it unforgettable.
I mean, pauses give audience "rests" of their brains, so audience can refresh their memory.
If there is no pause during the speech, the speech would not be effective.

2. Speaking with emotions, talking to the audience from bottoms of their hearts
If I care my pronunciation or grammar too much, I can't put my emotions on my words.
I just "speak" somehow, that's it.
But...I want to contain my message into my speech, and deliver it impressively to audience.
To be able to do so, I need a lot of practice...

I was chosen as an emcee at our club's 10 year anniversary, in June.
The venue is Roppongi, the audience will be from 60-100.
Since I'm not very sure I'm fine at the beginning of June because I will undergo surgery again at the end of May... I asked Atsuko, who is another member, to be my "partner."
Both of us will be "double" emcee, or at the worst case, Atsuko will be a single emcee if I can't join the party.

I hope I'm all right at the party, and be able to do great emceeing.
The reason why I've joined the Toastmaster is to practice & prepare for the time when I come back emcee job, so hopefully...I can manage my time to practice the anniversary emcee.
Now I'm SO sleepy that I don't know what I'm writing!
See ya!!

Saturday, April 10, 2010

Complements & Confidence

I wrote about Arisa, who is 10-year-old my private student, at the "Word Magic" article.
Last week, she stunned me showing her "original Word Magic book" with her creative drawings.
Then, this week, she surprised me again. She studied 8 units of the self-study material, "Word Magic!"

8 units for one week...even adults can't do that!
Although she started to work out the material one month ago, she almost finish the material! (Most kids study it for half year.)

Arisa is a VERY quiet girl.
I've been teaching her for two years. In the first year, she was one of the students in a group lesson class. Because she was too quiet, I was always worried if she didn't enjoy the class.
Therefore, I was surprised when she said she would take my private lesson.

Even after the private lesson started, she had hardly ever smiled to me.
But, lately, she was getting friendlier little by little. In other words, she started to open her mind to me, finally. (It took two years! But some people take a loooong time to get closed...)

I've tried to ask her personal questions to get to know her and tried to talk about my personal matters to open myself to her.
I've said many complements to her, and I didn't have to "try" that because she is such a quick learner.
Last week, I was moved to see her original "Word Magic" book, so I told this to her.
"Arisa, this is amazing! I'm very glad about what you did! How can you manage your time to make the book? I know you're very busy with going cram school... You are so SPECIAL, Arisa, and I LIKE you a lot!"

The last sentence, "You are so special, and I like you a lot!" is a kind of magic sentence to kids to motivate them.
I knew that, but I didn't imagine Arisa, the coolest girl I've ever seen, was motivated so much!

I'm very very glad for her...and, it doesn't mean "I'm glad because I can sell another self-study material to her mother!"
I'm helping her, it's a good thing, I'm saying to myself...

Friday, April 09, 2010

De-functioning Aura

Last summer, my hubby bought me a new PC.
That was a super cute pink VAIO, provided by Sony.
I've enjoyed writing this blog and so on by the cute pink VAIO...since last Tuesday.

Since then, whenever the cute pink VAIO operated, a big noisy not-cute-at-all sound came out.
My hubby tried to find where it came, but mysteriously, when he came close to the cute pink VAIO, the sound stopped. When he left from it, the noisy sound started to come out again. Note;I stayed close to it, when he did the experiment.

My hubby seemed to realize something, and said.
"I know the reason! The reason is YOU! I know you have a kind of "De-functioning aura"to electrical appliances!!"

You may not believe, but I...would believe his idea.
One day, before my hubby got home, suddenly our DVD recorder stopped. On the same day, my computer mouse became not working.
My hubby repaired them till late night. The DVD recorder and the computer mouse were quite new. I had no idea why they were broken....but my hubby was saying, "It's not first time! Whenever our electrical appliance was broken, there is YOU"! Sometimes you give off a kind of unexplained aura, and the electrical appliances catch that, and are knocked out by your AURA!!

I am also butter-fingered. I often drop something.
When I watched press conference after the Grammy Awards, Tyler Swift who got 6 Grammys, dropped 2 awards out of six. Many people said it was unbelievable & shocking, but I felt for her.
If I were her, I'm sure I would drop SIX of them, not just TWO!!

I had my cute pink VAIO repaired.
Now, I use my hubby's cool black FMV, provided by Fujitsu. It's cool, but I miss my cute pink one... If I love her more, she would be immune to my De-functioning aura?
How can I treat this unreasonable symptom? Somebody, help me!

...My VAIO, please come back home, the soonest!!

Monday, April 05, 2010

Globalization in a classroom

Sometimes I feel the world has been globalized rapidly.
Today, I feel that in my English kid class!

The class is for middle graders (the third & fourth graders) of elementary school.
The students are three cute girls.
One of today's key sentences was "What is your favorite color?"
To make it varied, I asked them, "What is your favorite TV program?"
I thought they would answer some comedy shows, animated cartoons or J-pop musical shows.
However, here is the conversation between me and the kids.

Keiko "What is your favorite TV program, Nana?"
Nana "Ah... A Korean drama."
Keiko"A KOREAN drama!? What's the title?"
Nene "Utsukusiki Nibi (Beautiful days.)"
Keiko "OK... Maiko, what's your favorite TV program?"
Maiko "News."
Keiko "NEWS program!? You mean...domestic? or international??"
Maiko "International. My dad always watches CNN."
Keiko "I see... Akane, what's your favorite TV program?"
Akane "Latino drama."
Keiko "LATINO!??? Which country??"
Akane "I guess... Mexico. They sound like speaking English, but it's not English."
Keiko "It's...Spanish. You listen to Spanish on the program!"

When I was in their age, I could watch some famous American dramas, but I never watched other country's dramas or world news in English.
How the globalization has been going on rapidly...even in my classroom!!

Sunday, April 04, 2010

Word Magic

Arisa, is one of my private student kids. She is a rich, smart girl.
I'm sure she, an elementary school girl who will be in the fifth grade soon, has a busier schedule than me, an English teacher who is in my mid-30's!
She has been preparing for entrance exams of private junior high schools, so she goes to cram schools every weekdays.
She couldn't come to my group lesson because of her cram school's schedule. That's why she started to take my private lesson, starting 7:00pm.

Arisa's mother trusts me, so she always says "Yes," to my offers.
When I suggested extending Arisa's private lesson time, whenever I recommend new textbooks or study materials, the mother says, "OK, I'll pay it by credit" and gave me her GOLD card.
(Sorry for digressing the topic! But since my school branch area is located in a RICH area, I was stunned when I saw my student, who was a junior college student girl, used a BLACK credit card!!)

Actually, sometimes I felt a kind of guilty about that.
I don't recommend BAD things...but is it OK to have her use so much money for a 10 year old school girl???
However, Arisa is worth to invest. Her understanding, concentration, pronunciation and reactions in English... The more she comes to my classes, the two or three times more her English improves.

On Thursday, my recognition for her became "assurance."
Now, she has been working on our new self-study drill, "Word Magic."
This is a special drill for building up vocabulary.
She has some quiz, wrote several words on her original "word book" many times, and I give the stickers having illustrations about the words.
Last Thursday, after I gave the unit's stickers for her, she showed me a notebook.
"Keiko sensei, my mom said I should show it to you!"

That was her notebook. But it was her another "word magic" book.
She wrote her new words from the "Word Magic" material many times, and she DREW pictures of the words, instead of stickers!!
I mean, she already wrote new new vocabulary (for example, "binoculars,") on the school's word book (and she has a sticker which has "binoculars" illustration.) But she bought another notebook by her own, and wrote "binoculars" also many times, and besides that, she drew her original "binoculars" illustration!

She does not only our school's original self-study material, but also makes her original material to build up her English vocabulary.
I hope I can show your her notebook!
That was so neat, amazing!

Now I understand, why her mother invests Arisa a lot. She can work hard. The more she learns, the more she can absorb new information!
I was very glad when I saw her original notebook.
Such a moment is exactly when I feel, I'm grateful about my job.

Friday, April 02, 2010

Business Offer

Last week, a curriculum coordinator from the head quarters came to our school branch, and said to me.
"Keiko sensei, do you have 10 or 15 minutes after your classes? I need to talk with you."
"Oh...sure."
The curriculum coordinator, Hideki, is an experienced teacher. He usually works at the head quarters, but sometimes he comes to our school branch to train our new chief teacher.

I was wondering, why he wanted to talk with me.
"Because I wear too much glitters or spangles? Am I violating our school's dress code??
Or, did he find my English mistakes while I'm talking with my students in English? Other Japanese teachers at my branch are so Americans...I mean, they sound comfortable speaking English more than speaking Japanese! I should be careful..."

I only thought, "what he is going to WARN me."
But, his business was unexpected.
"Keiko sensei, have you ever thought being a chief teacher?"
"ME!? ...never."
We have one chief teacher at every school branch, and they are full-time Japanese teachers.
I had no idea what he was talking about, but he started to talk about more unrealistic thing to me.
"Keiko sensei, we want you to be a chief teacher. I can't say from when or which school branch right now, but if you accept our offer, we'll make a position for you."
"What!? ME!? Why me!? I'm just a part-time teacher!"
"Yeah, I know. And even not every full-time teacher can become a chief teacher. Those who are only eligible & adequate teachers can be. I just think...I've been watching how you work for us for several months, and I thought you are SO adequate for a chief teacher. Your performance is REALLY good!"

....I was very surprised, but I felt so honored that I almost started to crying. ( I didn't!)
I am a part-time teacher, but I've tried my best to be a professional.
I know I haven't experienced yet, but...Hideki, an experienced teacher who has an authority, recognized my performance, and offered a business chance!

But, I became cool soon.
"Hideki sensei, it was VERY honored for me to have such an excellent offer.
I know I can improve as a teacher if I become a chief teacher...but here is a thing.
I've been having a medical treatment. (I didn't say what kind of treatment) I have to see doctor regularly, it actually...takes time.
So, I can't become a full-timer right now, but, if the time comes...I mean, the time when situations allow me to get your offer...let me talk to you."
Hideki sensei smiled to me,
"I got it. Keiko sensei, please come to me anytime. Please keep it on your mind. We need you!"

I felt very happy that day, so I talked my hubby about that.
Also, I asked one question to him. Hideki said, "Your PERFORMANCE is really good."
I translated the word, "performance" into "how I communicate with my students." But, my understanding is true?
What did he actually mean, "performance?"
My hubby works in the human resource department, so I thought he knew the answer.

He smiled to me...
"You know what! Your performance is, this!"
Then, he started to sing,"Sentimental journey"(a jazz song,) and move awkwardly.

"...Honey, that is MUSICAL performance what I did at the Lafayette Musical Group when I was in America!"
I sang the song & danced VERY awkwardly in front of many professional musicians at that time.
Once. he watched the video coincidentally, and burst into laughing, saying, "Is this your COMEDY show!? That's hilarious!!" ...Since then, he sometimes makes fun of me about that.

...My hubby is from Kansai area, where people think "laughter is greater." I hardly every get a serious answer when I ask him a question...